01.01.2009

Oh Rabbit ball, I love you.

Oh Rabbit ball, I love you.

Marks of a special day today? Nah, not really for me. What’s so special about another new year? To me, it just feels like another day to me and another year has passed.

Wow, time really flies!

I’ve been sick lately and I’ve been hating how long I’ve been down sick. It’s been 2 weeks and I still feel like I’m going to die tomorrow. I have no idea what kinda virus I’ve caught but it sure doesn’t feel nice. Everytime I think about a particular “dish” I just feel like vomiting all over the place. Like.. right now. Ugh. I wish I didn’t eat that much of that crap. How disgusting! Okay it must’ve been food poisoning or whatever.

Anyhow, I’ve also been feeling really irritable lately. I have no idea why either. I just feel like yelling and fighting and neglecting things. I guess this is considered as “hormonal effects” for a girl. But it still makes me feel horrid and I’m not particularly liking it.

Another part of my life; I realized how garbage some “friends” are. I met up with my high-school friends the other day, and realized how much more valuable they are compared to anyone else I’ve known recently. Their values and how they judge people. To them, friendship is something they treasure and they don’t “use” people to their advantage. I never thought friendship was to use people to their advantages, I guess this is the difference between a caucasian style of friendship and an asian style of friendship. I realized how pitiful asians are in a way. (No offense, really, but I’m probably just in a pretty bad mood so forgive me – and when I mean “asians” just -true- Hong Kongers) They all feel that to “use” someone is the correct definition of friendship and they all judge each other through a group.

ie. If you just happen to be in Group A but your thoughts are completely off and are more of idealist B, other people from Group C would just think you think like Group A and you’re all a massive bunch of crap.

That’s, basically the entire thing about “Hong Kong-ian friendship”. I hate it. Maybe Canada was actually the best choice for me in the final. Cuz at least people there know how to treasure friendship and not backstab people. Okay, they do, but, less of it and they actually do say “I’m going to talk about you” in your face for starters.

Man, what’s wrong with my life!

P.S. Oh Andrew.. where are you? =(